One, two step

I'm excited at the prospect of turning over a new leaf. Who wouldn't be? The prospect of getting the ultimate degree of freedom, the endless possibilities that lie ahead without the mention of academic responsibilities.

Who are we kidding?

I'll tell you my experience so far. It begins with a small voice in the back of your head whispering, "You're own your own now, [insert name].."
Slowly it turns into, "Dude, you can't survive this long without dough man.."
Then it becomes, "They are watching you more than before now. And this time they're not expecting letters of the alphabet (i.e. As, Bs, Cs, etc.) anymore.."
And finally the once small weasel of a voice turns into a roaring "YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN MAN!"

Not the most pleasant of stages in life when you feel so vulnerable.

And so begins my journey as an adult. Like Robert Frost once put it in his poem The Road Not Taken, I see two roads diverged in a yellow wood; and (am) sorry I could not travel both. Perhaps I could attempt to. But like I've said before, multitasking isn't a man's best quality. I've tried it, and I've achieved mediocre results at them - at best.
That's why I never cease to envy my mother's ability to carry out 4 jobs at once while simutaneously talking to a client and berating her worker for a spelling error. This is in addition to working on a messy table (a minor compulsive personality I have, so totally unacceptable in my books) and thinking about a meeting she's about to attend. But I've come to realize that this is what it takes to be a successful person; the ability to handle situations as they come and go. It's not like you can tell your boss to wait while you take a crap, can you? No, you gotta hold your shit and settle more important things, like paperwork and stuff.

I've diverged abit from the topic, haven't I?

For one, I know I have not been spending enough time thinking about this (though, some might fiercely oppose this suggestion). It doesn't help when you have episodes after episodes Heroes, House, 70's show, Futurama and a feet high collection of unwatched DVDs. I felt it today, the moment I step my foot for jogging, my mind was clear, thoughts started gushing through like an overflowing dam. I then said to myself, "Screw trying to catch up on the 2 years you've not been onlining, I have got to do this more often.." Maybe most of you feel lost in translation about now, but I probably just can't describe it well enough.

Thinking is good.. and important.
So if ANYONE (experienced or not) can so much as give me a clue as to where to start and how, it will be greatly appreciated and I will personally engrave your name in J.Wo's hall of fame once it's built.

Unfortunately my constant lack of sleep hinders the process but that's another story altogether. The irony. For now, there's no conclusion to any decisions. But then again, the only conclusion anyone gets in one's life is his/her eulogy! That's for someone else to think about.

Excuses, schmecuses

As always I will cut to the chase, and this time by ignoring all the complaints of a dead and un-updated blog. I will however take an effort to explain why it has been so. I have (not so) systematically divided it for people with short attention spans to be able to read just the first few words before the bracket. =D

1. Approximately a month ago began a major assignment period (major like 30 credits, so losing 10% is like losing any first class chances in a full module) - followed by
2. Major exam period (finals, 70% of my final course count, yada yada, which if i might add wasn't exactly the best life experience i've had so far) - leading to
3. Stress - so a man makes the decision to
4. Not leave the house - em, period.
   
5. House in jungle does not have internet - and
6. Stressed man doesn't really feel like going to the uni to go online - not to mention
7. Logging onto the uni's computers produces a white hair everytime you try - and for some reason walla
8. It doesn't allow me to login to Blogger®.

I hope that sums enough up for you to comprehend my predicament. What's a man to do?

Anyway, to the batmobile!

've always wanted to say that. Anyhow, penning off. Multitasking just isn't a man's best quality.

P.S. : Here's a simple yet immensely inspiring video.

"Michael Jordan's take on failure"

A stretch.

I write this post with half a mind, literally. A streneous 30 hour stretch of voluntarily consciousness has robbed me of all sanity, temporarily. To my luck (or lack of it thereof), it was accompanied by an incomprehensibly bad day. A bad day so wicked that it signified the epitome of Murphy's Law - everythig that could've went wrong did go wrong; in the worst possible way, at the worst possible time. Heh, but seeing my blur state, i will spare you all with the dramaticized version for today seeing that it might be understated in the blurness. No, I do not want pity. a lil cash would make things better though.

Exam period is looming around the corner. Unlike any other exams I've ever had, this one is coming as a shock. I am practically having about 4 days to prepare for the two biggest papers in my third year. Some people decided to crucify us during the first three days only to be raised up to be kicked down again. May God help us all and subtlely punish those responsible for this cruelty to the innocent.

Stop coughing, I am for most part innocent.

Anyhow, I will expect the days ahead..to be out of my dictionary, seeing that the darkness and I have become one, and breakfast is typically served at 2pm. It's like the end of the world. In some way, it is. The end of one's education path (well, as far as my plans go for the time being at least) signifies the end of the beginning as well as the beginning of a 'young adult's' turn of leaf. Ironically, in all the mindless education (excuse my bitterness towards our local education system, i suppose the 30 hour spree has taken a toll on my mood) nothing prepares us for the unpredictability and turbulations of the next 20 years of this next phase. Why do I say this? I don't know. See what i mean?