One, two step

I'm excited at the prospect of turning over a new leaf. Who wouldn't be? The prospect of getting the ultimate degree of freedom, the endless possibilities that lie ahead without the mention of academic responsibilities.

Who are we kidding?

I'll tell you my experience so far. It begins with a small voice in the back of your head whispering, "You're own your own now, [insert name].."
Slowly it turns into, "Dude, you can't survive this long without dough man.."
Then it becomes, "They are watching you more than before now. And this time they're not expecting letters of the alphabet (i.e. As, Bs, Cs, etc.) anymore.."
And finally the once small weasel of a voice turns into a roaring "YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN MAN!"

Not the most pleasant of stages in life when you feel so vulnerable.

And so begins my journey as an adult. Like Robert Frost once put it in his poem The Road Not Taken, I see two roads diverged in a yellow wood; and (am) sorry I could not travel both. Perhaps I could attempt to. But like I've said before, multitasking isn't a man's best quality. I've tried it, and I've achieved mediocre results at them - at best.
That's why I never cease to envy my mother's ability to carry out 4 jobs at once while simutaneously talking to a client and berating her worker for a spelling error. This is in addition to working on a messy table (a minor compulsive personality I have, so totally unacceptable in my books) and thinking about a meeting she's about to attend. But I've come to realize that this is what it takes to be a successful person; the ability to handle situations as they come and go. It's not like you can tell your boss to wait while you take a crap, can you? No, you gotta hold your shit and settle more important things, like paperwork and stuff.

I've diverged abit from the topic, haven't I?

For one, I know I have not been spending enough time thinking about this (though, some might fiercely oppose this suggestion). It doesn't help when you have episodes after episodes Heroes, House, 70's show, Futurama and a feet high collection of unwatched DVDs. I felt it today, the moment I step my foot for jogging, my mind was clear, thoughts started gushing through like an overflowing dam. I then said to myself, "Screw trying to catch up on the 2 years you've not been onlining, I have got to do this more often.." Maybe most of you feel lost in translation about now, but I probably just can't describe it well enough.

Thinking is good.. and important.
So if ANYONE (experienced or not) can so much as give me a clue as to where to start and how, it will be greatly appreciated and I will personally engrave your name in J.Wo's hall of fame once it's built.

Unfortunately my constant lack of sleep hinders the process but that's another story altogether. The irony. For now, there's no conclusion to any decisions. But then again, the only conclusion anyone gets in one's life is his/her eulogy! That's for someone else to think about.