One, two step

I'm excited at the prospect of turning over a new leaf. Who wouldn't be? The prospect of getting the ultimate degree of freedom, the endless possibilities that lie ahead without the mention of academic responsibilities.

Who are we kidding?

I'll tell you my experience so far. It begins with a small voice in the back of your head whispering, "You're own your own now, [insert name].."
Slowly it turns into, "Dude, you can't survive this long without dough man.."
Then it becomes, "They are watching you more than before now. And this time they're not expecting letters of the alphabet (i.e. As, Bs, Cs, etc.) anymore.."
And finally the once small weasel of a voice turns into a roaring "YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN MAN!"

Not the most pleasant of stages in life when you feel so vulnerable.

And so begins my journey as an adult. Like Robert Frost once put it in his poem The Road Not Taken, I see two roads diverged in a yellow wood; and (am) sorry I could not travel both. Perhaps I could attempt to. But like I've said before, multitasking isn't a man's best quality. I've tried it, and I've achieved mediocre results at them - at best.
That's why I never cease to envy my mother's ability to carry out 4 jobs at once while simutaneously talking to a client and berating her worker for a spelling error. This is in addition to working on a messy table (a minor compulsive personality I have, so totally unacceptable in my books) and thinking about a meeting she's about to attend. But I've come to realize that this is what it takes to be a successful person; the ability to handle situations as they come and go. It's not like you can tell your boss to wait while you take a crap, can you? No, you gotta hold your shit and settle more important things, like paperwork and stuff.

I've diverged abit from the topic, haven't I?

For one, I know I have not been spending enough time thinking about this (though, some might fiercely oppose this suggestion). It doesn't help when you have episodes after episodes Heroes, House, 70's show, Futurama and a feet high collection of unwatched DVDs. I felt it today, the moment I step my foot for jogging, my mind was clear, thoughts started gushing through like an overflowing dam. I then said to myself, "Screw trying to catch up on the 2 years you've not been onlining, I have got to do this more often.." Maybe most of you feel lost in translation about now, but I probably just can't describe it well enough.

Thinking is good.. and important.
So if ANYONE (experienced or not) can so much as give me a clue as to where to start and how, it will be greatly appreciated and I will personally engrave your name in J.Wo's hall of fame once it's built.

Unfortunately my constant lack of sleep hinders the process but that's another story altogether. The irony. For now, there's no conclusion to any decisions. But then again, the only conclusion anyone gets in one's life is his/her eulogy! That's for someone else to think about.

Excuses, schmecuses

As always I will cut to the chase, and this time by ignoring all the complaints of a dead and un-updated blog. I will however take an effort to explain why it has been so. I have (not so) systematically divided it for people with short attention spans to be able to read just the first few words before the bracket. =D

1. Approximately a month ago began a major assignment period (major like 30 credits, so losing 10% is like losing any first class chances in a full module) - followed by
2. Major exam period (finals, 70% of my final course count, yada yada, which if i might add wasn't exactly the best life experience i've had so far) - leading to
3. Stress - so a man makes the decision to
4. Not leave the house - em, period.
   
5. House in jungle does not have internet - and
6. Stressed man doesn't really feel like going to the uni to go online - not to mention
7. Logging onto the uni's computers produces a white hair everytime you try - and for some reason walla
8. It doesn't allow me to login to Blogger®.

I hope that sums enough up for you to comprehend my predicament. What's a man to do?

Anyway, to the batmobile!

've always wanted to say that. Anyhow, penning off. Multitasking just isn't a man's best quality.

P.S. : Here's a simple yet immensely inspiring video.

"Michael Jordan's take on failure"

A stretch.

I write this post with half a mind, literally. A streneous 30 hour stretch of voluntarily consciousness has robbed me of all sanity, temporarily. To my luck (or lack of it thereof), it was accompanied by an incomprehensibly bad day. A bad day so wicked that it signified the epitome of Murphy's Law - everythig that could've went wrong did go wrong; in the worst possible way, at the worst possible time. Heh, but seeing my blur state, i will spare you all with the dramaticized version for today seeing that it might be understated in the blurness. No, I do not want pity. a lil cash would make things better though.

Exam period is looming around the corner. Unlike any other exams I've ever had, this one is coming as a shock. I am practically having about 4 days to prepare for the two biggest papers in my third year. Some people decided to crucify us during the first three days only to be raised up to be kicked down again. May God help us all and subtlely punish those responsible for this cruelty to the innocent.

Stop coughing, I am for most part innocent.

Anyhow, I will expect the days ahead..to be out of my dictionary, seeing that the darkness and I have become one, and breakfast is typically served at 2pm. It's like the end of the world. In some way, it is. The end of one's education path (well, as far as my plans go for the time being at least) signifies the end of the beginning as well as the beginning of a 'young adult's' turn of leaf. Ironically, in all the mindless education (excuse my bitterness towards our local education system, i suppose the 30 hour spree has taken a toll on my mood) nothing prepares us for the unpredictability and turbulations of the next 20 years of this next phase. Why do I say this? I don't know. See what i mean?

Freefall

I'm watching history in the making - a drop of almost 39 points in the KLCI (to give you an idea, the market goes up or down an average of 3-4 points /day). It's the worst plunge in almost 4 years.

The local bourse today experienced what some called a 'freefall' or the 'red ocean'. Imagine an almost straight line on a graph, haha. See for yourself:

I call it Mega Sale.

Soaring among eagles

"One man’s meat is another man’s poison…”

I have met so many people and continue to meet more people every single day of my life. I read somewhere that what makes every single person unique is not his/her looks, his personality, his background, etc. To be as superficial as that is akin to looking at a ship in a vast ocean. Instead, one should realize that what we are is constantly being molded every single minute in our life to the minutest detail thus disallowing the possibility for identical twins to be identical in any way.

"We are our own universe and meeting a new person is like a unity of two galaxies.."

It’s that deep – but only if you try to see it. Today a friend of mine brought me to his company’s dinner event. There I met his colleagues who have a common passion in their job. “How do you know?” you ask. When asked “How’s the job?”, the best ones have a certain conviction in their voice, a pierce in their gaze, a stance to their pose and an aura to their presence.

I finally met his boss that I’ve been hearing about for a long time. (To which he replied, “All rumours..” and smiled.) Such humility for someone who has achieved what I’d safely say eighty percent of the population has not achieved in their entire working life. He has changed two Porchés, currently has a Maserati(go look it up, and you'll know why I brought this up), has his own bungalow and is only 31. Says a lot, doesn’t it?

I have a supreme regard for such people because they know what they want, how they are going to get there and most importantly why they do what they do - also known as absolute conviction.

Irealized the importance of choosing your group of friends especially if you’re the type to mingle with the same group of people day in and day out. Choosing wrongly would be like getting a wrong prescription and could lead to grave consequences(if you watch House enough); Whereas the right pills can only bring you to greater heights and nothing less.

Argue as you might, there is no denying this fact : “Success breeds success..”

Tschüs

Fickle, dammit.

It's a really testing time on Bursa, the market's been going up and up and falling, but even when it's falling, it's 50/50 so you don't..or at least I'm not certain on what to do. Arrgh, time to cut losses and maximize profits..stupid Tenaga. Pray that by next week all'll be good!

Plus, I've been saying that I'm feeling lucky this year; even won about 25bux today in Blackjack and ChorDi, hah. (from a negative 20 went up to positive 50; with max RM5 bets only) Though, thing was, it kinda felt like a big wastage of 4 hours of my life. But +ve anything is better than -ve anything, i always say.

Favorite track of the day : Bruce Springsteen - Secret garden from the Jerry Maguire soundtrack. *Proceeds to place it in my [soothing] folder*

Aussies
A big portion of my leg (kaki) ciaoed recently in view of the starting Australian semesters.

Mr. Yong Jeng Wei : I've banked in your dough already, with extra ang pow from my mom, haha. Make sure you tell me when you're comin back so you can help me buy half of Quiksilver or something.
Wang Hong: Was really nice meeting up today, and you could've told me that Chee Yong was your BOYFRIEND. wth. Anyhow, we'll bump into each other again next year if all goes well, haha.
Sern Li: Hope you're all fine and fit from yer flight. Come back with more stories next year man, can't wait.
D.Bong: It's short for Diane in case any of you guys wanna get funny, lol. I told you all Justins are special. hah. The friendship we have cannot be put into words, but it's far from average I can tell you that. Your English hasn't deteriorated, and I hope we both come up with a solution for your predicament soon; else we're gonna be 2 lost sheep in heaven/hell on earth.

Yo'all be good, aite? Cheers.


In case you were wondering, Tschüs is the German equivalent of "tata.."

Mind of mine

Have you ever heard of someone telling you the best way to start your day is to adhere to the saying "Early bird gets the worm"?
Well I want to debunk the myth and offer an alternative to my fellow night-dwellers. The best way to start your day is to have the best end of yesterday.

Now hold them thoughts. This idea actually came from a newspaper article my friend described to me sometime ago. It claimed that there was a boy, who could , read : choose his dreams. Overflowing thoughts at this point? You're not alone. Thoughts of a life where everything is free and everyone is happy. Escapades in unexplored places. Perfect moments with the person who acecpts and appreciates all I am. Pages and volumes could not fill the types and descriptions of the dreams I(or anyone for that matter)'d like to have. Ok a lil out of point already.

Anyway, what i did was :

1. Visualize the great day I'm gona have tomorrow down to the last minute detail. (you can also try using this to get your dream dream)
   
2. Know that it'll happen.
3. Repeat step 1 till I fall asleep.
   

It was 4.30 a.m. when I tried this yesterday. I woke up at 8.25 for breakfast* with Bong (amazing chattin', as always ;) - 5 mins before my alarm was supposed to ring.

I have countless quotes on how great and important your thoughts, brains or mind is. But simply put, "The mind is an amazing thing.."

If you do try it though, do tell me if there're any notable results? (e.g. remembered your dream, had a perfectly 'planned' day, dream songsang abit, etc.)

Also, I really felt that I had to update my Friendster profile and photos. And i came up with this.
Appreciate comments! I don't want to be like those artists whose masterpieces are only appreciated after they're RIP-ing.

Oh, by the way, i won 4D today = RM17 for RM1 investment!! haha. (Did i mention i spent RM15 on 3 different outlets? Joker.) Bought another RM3 worth of it though. So net loss of only RM1.. till tomorrow.

Aite, out.


* - I do not usually eat breakfast. My housemates know that if they see me having breakfast or anytime up before 8.45a.m., I basically didn't sleep.